Fear.Com

I don't know if I post it before every hundred and something, but I know this is the time I feel it before every race.... Fear! I love fear, it gives me something to conquer (I sure aint conquering poverty!)

You'd think with 15 complete in the books that it would be old hat. Nope. Particularly after 26 hours in the last one. I really thought I was in shape but that's no where near 24 hours. Yes, there were issues on a hard course, but the fear is, am I the major issue? Is it me? Age? Weight? Skill? Drive? Did I do enough? Do I care enough? Should I have done that 6th loop at Bradshaw with the wind howling? I know all the things I could have done but didn't.

Go ahead Star say it.... "You'll be _ _ _ _!" I believe I understand why that means little.

Fact is, I will be fine. I will finish, and I'll give 24 a run for it's money. Will I beat A2? I hope not, but I hope to give a number something near a good full day to shoot at? Will I beat Star? I hope not! Because she is running so well, I'd love to see her challenge 24. But I hope I give them a week of wondering... can I do that? Well, here's a huge secret, "If I can do it, you can do it!"

And as scared as I am, I'm going to do it! Courage isn't the absence of fear, it's looking fear in its fat face and saying, "Get the F%*K outta here fear!" That's John Wayne right there, and if the Duke said it.....